Thursday, April 15, 2010

I Will Follow You

I've been blogging for two years now, seeing my my life as a series of "bloggable" and "not bloggable" events and trying my best to write well, write honestly, and write fast. My reasons for blogging have been part social, part chronicle, and part therapeutic. Sometimes this is the only adult communication I have in a given day. With 9 people living in this house those days are few and far between now, but they do still happen. 2 years of doing this, and it wasn't until recently that I really started looking around at other bloggers except for a few close friends. I do this a lot in life. I join groups and get so absorbed in the part I must play in them that I forget to look around - really look at people's faces - and see the humanity that surrounds me. I do this in theater, music, school, work, and even living in a house full of family I haven't lived with in 6 years or more. I don't know if I'm really self-absorbed, have a one-track mind, or if I'm just worried that I won't do a perfect bang-up job of whatever it is I'm doing. I just lose sight sometimes. My peripheral vision blacks out, and I forget that I am surrounded by other beating hearts. It's so refreshing and such a relief to finally look around and see others struggling, celebrating and cataloging this crazy life we lead. I'd like to shout out to all of you fellow bloggers - both the ones who know me and the ones who don't, but whose blogs nonetheless add savor to my morning cup of coffee. You inspire me to keep writing, though I know I'm not great at it. I know I don't comment half as often as I should or would like, but I hear you. All of you. And I really appreciate the time you spend communicating with the world. I'm trying harder to see you, to cheer you on, laugh with you, cry with you, love and hate the things you say . . . I'll follow you to through all the dark and light places you lead me, and I hope you'll do the same. After all, that's what we're here for, right?


courtney*adele said...

*think big sister talking to little sister* 'stop following me!" ;) just kidding- i'll follow you if you follow me- through the ups and downs, pretties and uglies! loved this post!

Samantha said...